Premature Aging

 

The last few years, I have noticed a drastic change with the increase in gray hair and wrinkles. I am also tired a lot but come to find out that could be because my iron is low. 😩 Some days it just all catches up and I do not want to do even one single thing, NOTHING but lay in bed with the covers over my head and pretend. 

Pretend that I am not a mother with responsibilities. 

Pretend that there aren't meds to be refilled or to keep up with, which of the 12 need to be called in to which of the two pharmacies. 

Pretend I don't need to update the paperwork required for the nursing agency that lists all doctor visits and reasons for going and outcomes. 

Pretend I don't need to update the seizure tracker. 

Pretend I don't need to follow up for the second time on the message sent to one of the 15 specialists two weeks prior.  

To pretend to not need to make sure we are on schedule for diaper delivery. for feeding supplies and formula.

Pretend to not need to check on the over-the-counter items to see if the melatonin, low dose aspirin, Flonase, ear or eye drops need to be ordered from Walmart or simethicone from Amazon.

Pretend that I do not need to research feeding pumps since we have to return the one we have and this is the opportunity to change if we are going to.

Pretend that I don't need to type and print out notes for the doctor for an upcoming appointment so I don't forget to discuss everything.

Pretend that I am not a wife with responsibilities.

Pretend that I do not need to plan meals for the week. 

Pretend that I do not have to order groceries for the meals planned and have them delivered. 

Pretend that I do not need to 

Pretend that I do not have a home with responsibilities. 

Pretend that the dogs do not need a bath.

Pretend that I don't need to refill the feeders and see how much food is left and if I need to order a new bag.

Pretend that rugs don't need vacuuming, then shampooed, floors don't need swept and mopped and every single thing sitting around needs dusted. 

That the fans do not need disassembled and dusted and cleaned.

Pretend the dishwasher doesn't need unloaded and the dishes in the sink loaded into it. 

Pretend that the refrigerator doesn't need to be cleaned out. 

Pretend the garden flags and door hangers don't need to be changed from the last holiday that has passed to the one that is coming up.

Pretend that bedding and blankets do not need to be washed. 

Pretend that I need to remember that before I go anywhere to do anything, that I need to get gas first.

Pretend that I don't need to check on my medications and see when it's time to refill them and if I have refills available. 

Pretend that I don't need to remind myself to shower every day, to utilize the skin care products that claim to help lessen the wrinkles and dark spots.  

Pretend that I don't need to set the coffee up to brew in the morning. 

Pretend that I do not need to fulfill previous obligations to others as well as myself.

Pretend that I do not have 4 loads of laundry to wash, dry and put away although they usually never make it to the drawers or closet.

Pretend that I don't have bills to pay.

Pretend that I don't have only 7 weeks left to have any kind of freedom before the best nurse we have ever had retires.  

Pretend that I am not forgetting countless other things that should be on this list.

This blog is my only outlet, and I still don't get to update like I want to, like I need to. Maybe I will have more opportunity when I am home 24/7. Maybe, just maybe there will be less stress and I won't continue aging prematurely. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 A girl can dream, right?