Dear Sarah,

Look what I mixed up today.

Mini Mayhem is in the hospital and I asked for the ingredients from the pharmacy on Friday. Today is Sunday. After nothing from the doc or pharmacy asking what kind of magic I was intending to concoct, I ordered the stuff this morning for Walmart delivery and Rick brought it up tonight. (Yep, that's a cafeteria bowl. LOL)

You would NOT believe this place now. Or maybe you would. I have posted to Facebook several examples of utter ridiculousnessessess that I have experienced in just this stay....and we were here last month and also in May. You know I am no bakery....there's no sugar coating here and I have been very vocal here in the hospital and on social media. To know what needs to be done and be unable to get it done, ohhhhhhhhhh the frustration. I know YOU of all people would, and did understand that. I get it now. I get it. Missing you.....and not only when I need to share the absurdities of this place. 💙

You not only took care of tiny humans, you took care of people. Your innate ability to always leave people feeling better about themselves, feeling important and validated, feeling better about a situation, was unmatched. I hope you had a wonderful birthday last month. I think of you so very often and pray for your 3 men.

OH, fun fact. Yanno Dr. Ault had left here a goooooood while back and she went to Erlinger. I know she was there at the same time you were. She retired and her replacement there was Jim Atherton! Dr. Atherton was a mere baby, first year fellow when MM was in the NICU doing that dreadful manual dialysis. Erlinger's Nephrology department is growing, and we saw Delos Santos yesterday and this is his last week here. He's headed to Erlinger too. 

If any of your Erlinger NICU pals happen to read this and see Dr. Jimmy Atherton, tell him the McCarren's family said HEY and he's missed and for him and Delos Santos to take care of one another and those kidney kiddos. 💚💙💚